I am married and had a 4 month affair with a co-worker that is single. We fell in love so quickly, he was all I thought of. His feelings for me were the same. He told me he loved me, never fell so quickly for someone, never had such strong feelings for someone, I was exactly what he had always been looking for, etc. It was all so very sweet and the sex was great. I loved every minute we spent together.
My husband discovered the affair and told me I had to break off all contact with AP if we were going to stay married. I have hurt him so badly and feel terrible about it. I feel I owe it to my husband and children to try my hardest at making the marriage work. I quit the job. I agreed to cut the affair off, but secretly kept in contact with AP for 4 weeks via text and phone, but never physically saw him. My husband discovered that I was still in contact with AP and was hurt again. I have now gone 3 weeks without contact, until today. I opened a new email account and messaged him from it. He told me he still loves me, misses me, thinks about me constantly, hopes that we'll be together one day.
I want to stop thinking of and longing for AP. I want to be true to my husband and to my marriage. I don't want to hurt my husband anymore. On the other hand, I don't want to hurt AP either. I need help. How do you get over someone you want to be with and that wants to be with you? How do I fall back in love with my husband?