Hello lovely people,
So here's the deal. I have been very close friends with this guy for 8-months now, although i know him since like 6 years ago, and i have developed some feelings for him. (oh btw we talk on the internet and skype since we are in diffrent countries, however we do meet up every few months)
After talking with him for 5 months i realized i loved him, which shocked me since he isnt really my type and not the kind of personality that i would want to be with, but i loved him never the less, and thought that he might love me back since he is always flirting with me and telling me very nice things and love related words, as well as talking sexually with me and telling me how attracted to me he is, and we simply click and understand each other and we can talk and have fun for hours. When i confessed my love for him he said that he doesnt know if he loves me 100%. I also get the sense that he doesnt want a commitment but if it is a matter of love or finance or personal or simply time i dont know.
Anyway i sort of took a break from him for like 3 weeks until i felt fine and ready to move on, and then we became best friends again, however he continued the same behaviour and i started getting confused. When i ask him why he acts this way he says that i am his very best and only friend and that he cant live without me and that i am his everything, so he doesnt think its wrong to talk to me this way and tell me how he feels (although he doesnt love me romanticly or want a relationship with me). I told him to stop acting this way if he we are to stay best friends and he agreed for my sake.
I need help figuring out how i feel about him. I love being and talking to him, and when i thought he might be in love with me, even after i moved on, i was soo very happy, and when i realized he didnt i was sooo disappointed but not that sad. I am so happy when he talks sweetly to me and feel soo in love with him, however when he talks to me normaly again i feel normal towards him. I think about him and feel attracted to him and find myself thinking of ways to make him love me, but i dont really see him as the father of my child for example.
Is this just me wanting to be in a relationship, or just lust, or pride since he is the first guy to not love me back or love or friendship i have no idea !!
Can someone make things more clear to me ? and most importantly HOW do i stay his bestfriend without hoping that he might love me someday? cuz i really just wanna be his friend.
so srry for the long post and a million thanks :*