Hi, I hope you have room for a another newbie. I am a W who actually just separated from her DH this week (we still live together because of $$$). I have been in a one month affair with a man (separated) I met. I loved how he made me feel, I lived for the mushy sweet sexy texts so forth. It was basically sex but boy it was a rush. Since my DH and I separated this week (He knows nothing of the A), I am realizing the right thing to do is to make things right with my DH. I feel there is a real chance.
My AP was separated with 5 grown kids, and yes that family was very dysfuctional. He told me he was attacked this week and yet I can't see him and his contact has been less and less. Red flags are going up all over the place since he says his estranged wife has hit him in the hospital so forth. If he did text, it was to complain or gripe. I am over this.
I realized the grass would NOT be greener on the other side, if anything more brown. I am feeling pangs of sadness this is going to end and I know it is for the best. How do I get over this? It seems like so hard to do. I am also scared of trying to reunite with DH.