I know the answer is not to do it. And I know I'm not *really* going to do it. But I just need some rational women to give me more reasons why I shouldn't do it because these forums always help me stay strong :)
So I dated this guy back when I was 23. He was perfect in every way, but I kept breaking up with him because I felt he was too good for me. He kept fighting for me. We were only together for 5 months, but it was an intense relationship. Finally he had enough and the last time I broke up with him, he didn't want me back. 2 months later he started dating someone else. In the months following our breakup, I messaged him once in a while, and finally he reponded saying "don't message me" and blocked me on facebook. This was almost 3 years ago - I believe he is still with that girl.
I've been in 1 serious long term relationship since then. I've also dated several guys in between. I've never been able to forget him though. Even though I don't believe in soulmates, no other guy ever made me stop in my tracks the way he did - even to this day, I know if he walks into a room, I won't be able to breathe. Don't get me wrong, I am totally functional and don't spend everyday moping. I'm just saying I haven't found anyone who has yet to make me feel the way he made me feel. And I so badly want to experience that feeling again.
So the question is, lately, I've been having thoughts about emailing him - to find out if he is single and if he would be interested in talking. I wouldn't dream of talking to him if he's still with his girl. I just want to test the waters I guess. I am not the same person I was 3 years ago and a part of me wonders if things would be different if I met him today, and not 3 years ago when I was so insecure about being in a relationship.
Emailing him would most probably be a home wrecker move, no? Especially when I'm 90% sure he's with that girl? What do you think? So ladies - tell me what I already know.... Please don't be mean. :(