Hello everyone! I haven't been able to sign on with any of my old user ID's so I finally was able to register again with this one.
The last time I posted my sister had been diagnosed with lung/brain cancer. On New Years Eve she was rushed to the hospital and placed on life support with pulmonary embolisms. She survived and was transferred to rehab where she stayed for 30 days until she became unresponsive. They found she had sepsis, brain bleed and swelling. They sent her home in early March and began to get stronger. On Easter Sunday she was sitting in a wheelchair talking and even helped with the potato salad. (she was proud of that). It wasn't a few short days later that she began unresponsive again and continued to decline until she passed away on April 24th. My sister died. Still so hard to believe. She was the hub of this family and her husband of 35 years is just devsastated.
You can go back and search my previous posts regarding my sister and my Mom. My sister was hard to get a long with and I was finally rebelling against it. The time since she was diagnosed to the day she died we were able to sort through all the feelings and know that regardless of the butting of heads we truly and intensely loved each other. How do I continue to give advice when I was so sure I had it figured out. Separate yourself from toxic people.....but at what price? I do not have any regrets in regards to my history with my sister. As we go through the process of memorials and I can see her through other's eyes I realize my sister had many valuable traits and was amazingly kind. Just not to me....normal sister behavior? Or could she feel free to be herself to me?? We had a benefit for her a week ago and 250 people showed up. Dang....the love in the room was so thick you could cut it with a knife. I was proud to be her sister....so we didn't like each other....not the end of the world. Did we waste time? No...I had my sweet and kind sister for a few months and was able to hold her hand and tell her many times that I love her. She died knowing that...and I knew it in return.
I miss her crazy and I hurt for me and her sweet husband and 3 grown children. My heart aches for so many things she is going to miss out on....since one of our nieces (my brother's daughter) has announced she's pregnant again after having a baby April 2012 who my sister doted on like her own Granddaughter. That breaks my heart that that little girl will never know how much her Auntie loved her.