I had some weird experience last night. I was watching something, and I had this emotion come over me. I don't intentionally seek out shows with sex, so this part snuck up on me.
And of course, my brain goes all funky and I start remembering things.
Now for the stupid part....this may be too much to put on here, I'm so sorry, I need to talk about it.
I would say starting a few years after we married, he started making me come before he would have sex with me. It became like a thing with him. 'No, I don't want to' was not an acceptable answer. He was going to do it and after a while he started adding to it. Like, one was over...but he would not move his hands away until I did more. It was hand or mouth but he would not stop....until he felt done I guess. It sounds stupid that having 'O' was hard, but i hated them. And if he thought i was faking, he would keep going. Then, it was sex.
Every time....I can't remember a time he didn't do that. Its exhausting.
I have no idea if that's what sex is supposed to be like. Should I have just shut up and enjoyed it?
See.....my stupid brain gets crap stuck up in there's or like Pandora's box opens and a sliver pops out and I go nuts remembering it.
Thanks for listening.