So, in my previous post I explained a bit of what has been taking place since I was last on this board. Well, I will spare you all that but I figured that I would post about the most recent development. I FINALLY got answers out of this guy. I am referring to the EA/PA I had last year with a guy I have known for 15+ years. It was SO not the answers I wanted and I have the answers I have been wanting since the A ended in November but I am still confused. Why am I confused you may ask. Well, he basically told me the exact opposite of what I was being told by him then. I know at that point we had agreed it was "just sex" but it NEVER felt like just sex. He treated me better as "just sex" than 99% of my actual past boyfriends. Am I delusional or do "just sex" people hold hands? Stop by during work so for a kiss? Send you a morning text just to say good morning beautiful? Or that they wanted you to wake up knowing they are thinking about you? I guess I missed the memo saying that just sex comes with boyfriend gestures. He sent me song lyrics, emailed me a song where all the lyrics talk about belonging together, even going as far as saying that he could see himself happy with me. Am I reading this all wrong?? I decided to ask him about this. I am shakin as I type out the text to him. We shall see what response I get...if one at all. Probably just another thing that I do not want to hear but I rather know the truth than kid myself. Gives me a reminder of why he isn't worthy of my attention, time, etc.
Turns out my hubby was right in thinking he had a motive for unblocking and starting to talk to me again. Hubby told me that he probably just wants to start things up again and he was right. How I despise when he is right.