I was wondering for those of you who have emotional ties with your AP as to why you would want that with someone you really can't have. To have an AP just part-time and never getting access to him/her until he/she is done fulfilling family obligations first before having time for you can be disheartening. It is a lot of work to emotionally have feelings for someone as much as you would in a relationship and then realize that this A is not going to progress further.
My biggest struggle is accepting things as they are. As the months turned into years, I am realizing that I really feel something strong for my AP. I am afraid of the day when this will fizzle. I must admit I don't think I could have another A after this simply because I do not want to be put in this position again. Any thoughts or advice is welcome.