I have been staring at this page awhile. I just feel numb I guess. My brain hasn't shut off in days. So please forgive the babbling.
I found emails from my husband to another woman that proves an affair. I confronted him. He admits to it. But says nothing had gotten physical yet I don't think I believe him. He wrote that she is always in his heart and he thinks of her day and night , that kind of stuff, but also said he doesn't love her. Some thing died in me when I read that. I don't want him to touch me or really even near me. I just don't know what to feel am I angry? Am I hurt? I don't even think I know. The one thing I do know is I want to burn all the wedding pictures and anything he ever gave me. It was all a lie. He swears he wants to be with me. But all I can think of is, he would still be doing it if he hadn't been caught, they had dinner plans for the night I confronted him, he says he wouldn't have been able to go because he would have felt guilty, but he didn't feel anything when he was emailing her while sitting beside me. So I don't believe that either. I don't believe he is sorry. I believe he is sorry he was caught.