So I just need somew here to share my story. On October 4th I discovered text messages my husband was sending to another woman. Calling her hunny saying "he loved talking to her" "it's just nice to have someone to talk to". He went to work quickly ( I had found it rite when he was on his way out the door). We have a 1 and 2 year old boy and girl. Pretty much ive been pregnant or breastfeeding. Also suffering ppd since the first was born. We've only been married for 5 years. In that time we've moved 4x had the babies. Needless to say not much time for ourselves and looking back I've been awful since the babies. He has been working 60 hours a week I work 30 a week. Hehasbeen going out a lot after work keeping his phone from me. A lot of red flags. inasked a babysitter to come so when he got home from work we went somewhere to talk he tells me it's a girl from high school. They have just been textong nothing else. I didn't believe him so I did investigating. Come to find out its a girl from work. They had been talking/hanging out since July. Found out a few times while I worked 3rd shift she came over. October 2nd she had spent the night at my house(in the basement). confronted him once I had all the info. He admitted to all of it. he tells me it started in July as just a friendship by September they were romantic (kissed a few times) yea rite..... Then on the 2nd she came over they had sex. he says that on the 3rd he called her and ended it. I was able to see she text/called,a few times he didn't call back. he says he is sorry loves me bla bla bla. I just can't get these feelings of pain/hate/ anger out of me. I'm on a roller coaster of emotions all day. i decided to try to work on our relationship. Feel like maybe I can forgive him but I'm just so hurt. Problem is they still work together. She said she is quitting but still hasn't. he has been giving me his phone at night. Coming home rite after work being attentive and supportive about giving me space when I need it. I never as this coming although looking back why not? Our marriage has been non existant form2 years. Finally starting to feel better after counseling now starting from scratch again. Hopeful for us just feels to soon yet. :( I'm just broken from this.