There is a background to this story. I've been with my soon to be husband for 8 and a half years. We are planned to marry in 8 months. For the past 5 months, we've had repeated fights about how he doesn't pay attention or spend time with me. While that sounds self centered, let me explain. He works anywhere from 10-15 hour days. I work as well and am helping raise my 3 year old brother. When I try to spend time with him, he rather be on Facebook or reading magazine articles.
This past weekend, the 19th of October, we threw a halloween bash. We had over 40 guest come over. It was our last hoorah until the holidays following the wedding. Everyone got stupid drunk which wasn't what I wanted. I ended up being the babysitter. I had a few people come up to me and tell me I needed to go check on my fiance. I was completely embarassed! He was on the couch with one of my best friends, rubbing up her leg and thigh. They were drunk. To me that is no excuse. Then on Monday morning someone sent me a few photos of my soon to be husband laying in the grass with my friend. She was practically on top of him as he gave someone the finger. I'm so embarrased and feel disrespected. He has apologized left and right. I also messaged her on FB....with the photos. Told her how I felt. She apologized. It just isn't enough. I got this party together. Took care of everyone. Cleaned up after everyone. The whole time, he was MIA. Drinking isn't an excuse as I've been drunk before and was able to control myself. I shouldn't have to tell him all this 8 years into the relationship & 8 months away from the wedding. below is one of the photos sent to me from someone at the party.
My question is: am I being ridiculous. I can take his apology but it doesn't change the way I feel. I feel after all my fighting over attention and practically begging for it, it's not worth it.