I havent been here in a long time. Im still in my affair. August this year will make it three years and one heck of an emotional rollercoaster ride.
I've been doing better with not flipping out on him as much when I think he's pulling away. I still have a hard time understanding why we cant talk 25/7. I told him I wanted it like it was in the beginning the other day and i think he misunderstood me. I miss the calls and texts flirting with each other. Even 50 feet away from each other and i havent really saw him/talked to him since Thursday. To me, as a woman I assume he doesnt want to see me etc because he hasnt been out like he used to be and all. I keep forgetting we have our own lives to live.
I did have a few talks with him the past month or two involving our emotions and such. Not sure if it has helped or not. We talked about it he freaked out thinkkng i was becoming too emotional. It was never intended for us to 1) have these emotikns and 2) to leave our spouses. I explained to him that i care for him very deeply and i have nwver and would never want him to leave his wife for me. Just as im not going to leave my husband for him.
If i had thw ability to get into his head....