I came on today because I had forgotten a moniker and curiosity got the best of me. I usually have a good memory but could not recall the moniker for days. I logged in and began my search. Once on, I couldn’t help but read some new threads and was tempted to jump in and give support. Then I thought, I haven’t been on for a long time and regular posters might wonder who is this and what makes her think she can jump in with advice?
They would be right. I mean who am I? I’m just a poster like them… just fast forwarded a few years like six or seven…meaning six to seven years—I’ve lost count—out from D-day.
I could proffer up a whole pep talk. Tell you all about my A, D-day, and rebuilding my M. It might make for interesting reading but I worry it might come across as if I’m so far away at the other end of the tunnel and not focused on trudging through the muck. I fear it would NOT come across as the pep talk that I would want it to be. The “you can do it,” message that I would hope to communicate might be lost in the I’m so far out of the A rendition.
I think it is easier to say. I AM YOU. I AM ALL OF YOU six or seven years ago. I remember the gamut of feelings. How efen hard it was to get through even one day of NC. I remember wanting to let go and at the same time how painful it was.
I hope you won’t be offended that I have no, “way, truth and light” doctrine to share. Just support and the idea that we can all help one another get through the muck.
Much love and big hugs,