I've been suffering a bunch of stress lately. The person who I considered my mom died and I cry everyday about. I am also bipolar. I have not been myself since then. Anyway, to get to the point.  I spent about 2,000 dollars of my husband's/ our money without telling him. He is really upset about. I can't even remember ordering that much stuff. He loves me but now he doesn't like to hang out with me and is  basically cold. It is so confusing. One night he is like, I'm leaving and gives me a hug and then he doesn't let me know where he is going. I love him very much but I am crying my eyes everyday begging him for forgiveness. I am trying to get an earlier appt with my therapist but so far no luck. I don't what he wants from me or where he wants to go with it . I can understand him being mad but I think if he loves me he would try to help this marriage. Well, I was curious to what anyone thinks. I'm not trying to be the victim but he doesn't understand the up and downs of being bipolar