A year ago today is when we found out our little guy wasn't going to make it. I've come to terms with so much of the pain, but I still wonder why we have to go through losses. I'm a recent PAL grad, but I still don't know if I can TTC another time and survive the uneasy time of being pg again. What if it happens again?
I wish that I had never lost our little guy. For 15 weeks I carried him and for 14 of those weeks he had a beating heart. What happened? Why couldn't I keep him going? Did I do something I shouldn't have? I know those answers really never come, but I wish they could.