So, we are going for a day 5 transfer. I'm a little dissapointed because now I have to wait another 2 days! :) They are watching 6 embryos. The coordinator gave me the grades but I can't remember what they were, you'd think I'd pay more attention, write this stuff down. Basically 4 were of the best grade and 2 were right behind them. I remember her saying that annother one wasn't going anywhere, I can't remember if she said anything about the rest, I'll just assume they didn't fertilize. I'll get all the facts and write them down this time.
I gave my mom an update a couple of hours ago and she said something that made me feel sad, it was a physical reaction. I was telling her how weird it felt that my baby was 15 miles away, growing in a laboratory and here I am at home, waiting for it. She said "POTENTIAL baby".....it felt like someone threw a wet, moldy, blanket over me. "I mean", she said "I really want this for you, I don't want you to be hurt if this doesn't work". Okay, I know she didn't mean it how I took it. I didn't even take it wrong, I know what she meant. It's that I ONLY need positive thoughts right now. I'm a bit negative in nature, I can always find the downside of things, I don't need anyone's help to point them out to me. I know this isn't guaranteed, I have to assume it's going to work and deal with it if it doesn't. I have an advantage as I have a beautiful son, we want this baby badly, but we are lucky that we are already parents. I'm a little suprised at how that comment made me feel and my mom would be devastated if she knew.
Anyway, that's it for now. I hope I'm not being annoying by posting about myself so much!