I'm a first time preggo...4 months along in NY.
I'm facing so much right now and really need support. The dad before "the dad" title was just a date...now, we are trying to build something for the sake of the baby...I find all my happiness in him.
And not in myself...see, my problem?
When is isn't around, does something wrong, doesn't call...my world falls apart. Horrible feeling (s)
I have to regroup...and realize. He may not always be around...and may not indeed be the man I need or want in my life just because he is the dad...
NOW, I'm trying to find love and comfort within me...this is ALL new...and I feel so lonely.
My mom is really ill...and I really need her right now and we haven't always had a good realtionship...but, now...she needs me and I don't feel like I have so much to give.
I feel drained-
I need a network of supportive people and I'm seeking that.
I also fight with depression...and was on meds but stopped to not harm my baby...
Can't have a joint or a glass of wine like I was use to doing...so, everything seems like a BIG challenge.
Anywho facing anything similar or have advice or love to give ::)
Thanks for reading...