Why is it when we do not want to see AF she shows up and when we need her the most she hides. Ughâ€¦ I am getting very impatient and frustrated. I am on my last day of Prometrium to start my cycle which has made me really sick and cranky. It does not help that both my in-laws are expecting their 2nd child and my co-workers seem to all be pregnant. I am very excited that I am going to be an Aunt again and love the babies to death. I just want my own. I do have a wonderful daughter who will be 13 from a previous marriage. It is just hearting when I see my husbandâ€™s face when he found out the 1st time his brotherâ€™s were expecting and now for the 2nd time. His oldest brother and wife are the only ones who are sensitive to the subject. My mother-in-law tells me I should just be grateful for what I have and this is why she does not know we are doing fertility. So Insensitive!!! My family is in another state so I have no support near me except for my wonderful hubby. I am jealous, hurt, angry, depressed, and just an emotional wreck but I can not show it. I tuck it deep down and cry and scream on the inside. I am sorry for the venting but I needed to just let some of it out. I never thought wanting another child would hurt this bad.