Why is it when we do not want to see AF she shows up and when we need her the most she hides. Ugh… I am getting very impatient and frustrated. I am on my last day of Prometrium to start my cycle which has made me really sick and cranky. It does not help that both my in-laws are expecting their 2nd child and my co-workers seem to all be pregnant. I am very excited that I am going to be an Aunt again and love the babies to death. I just want my own. I do have a wonderful daughter who will be 13 from a previous marriage. It is just hearting when I see my husband’s face when he found out the 1st time his brother’s were expecting and now for the 2nd time. His oldest brother and wife are the only ones who are sensitive to the subject. My mother-in-law tells me I should just be grateful for what I have and this is why she does not know we are doing fertility. So Insensitive!!! My family is in another state so I have no support near me except for my wonderful hubby. I am jealous, hurt, angry, depressed, and just an emotional wreck but I can not show it. I tuck it deep down and cry and scream on the inside. I am sorry for the venting but I needed to just let some of it out. I never thought wanting another child would hurt this bad.