I spent last week in training with a bunch of guys from work. Part of the training consisted of a pretty high ranking Supervisor talking to us about leadership. During part of the training he asked us to raise our hands if we didn't have children. I felt like he kicked me in the stomach! Only one guy and I raised our hands. He went on to talk about his kids and their perceptions of "fairness", saying that someday those of us without kids would understand.
During the break I approached him and asked to speak with him in private. I started to explain to him that what he did was rather insensitive, considering that he didn't know his audience. And right then and there I completely broke down. I mean it was the kind of sobbing that comes from deep down in the pit of your stomach. I didn't see it coming. The poor guy felt like crap! He apoligized, but I was mortified! I went to the rest room and cleaned up as best as I could then went back to class.
Then yesterday, DH and I were with my MIL showing her the land we bought to build on. I was joking saying that DH wanted to get a couple of goats, when she said we should get some kids. Stupid me thought she was talking about baby goats! My hubby went off on her! He is very private, so he never really wanted me to tell her about our infertility problems, although she knew about my surgery last year, and I mentioned it once. That got me crying...AGAIN!
Then today...I was trying to order flowers for my mom, who is having surgery tomorrow. I couldn't get FTD to work on the internet on my IPhone, so I called their 1-800 number. For some reason I couldn't understand what the operator was asking me... and THAT brought me to tears. DH felt horrible (he was giving me grief because he could hear her and he was sitting across the couch from me). I hung up the phone, went to bed and cried.
What is wrong with me? I thought I was past all of this! I wasn't even this emotional last year when I was in the middle of treatments ttc!