Saturday was a rough day and probably the worest I have ever had. As you know my baby neice was stillborn on 4-3. We laid her to rest this past Saturday. I feel like a large chunk of my heart was buried with her. It was a very emotional service. They had viewing at 9am and it was horrible. She did not look good at all. I wish I wouldn't have seen her like that. I then watched them close the clasket and that was hard. I sobbed through the whole service. It really got me at the end when they sang the song Tears in Heaven by Eric Clappton. Oh my god that song never left my head and when I hear it in my head all I do is cry. I do not understand why God has taken her from us and why she was never given a chance.
I have placed my IVF cycle on hold since I want to make sure that I am emotional and physically ready when I move into it. I am hoping to be ready for a July cycle.
I hope to get caught up this week with everything that is going on. Thanks for being the support I need.
Me ~ 31 DH ~ 33 TTC #1 since August 2002. Dealing with mild Endo, PCOS, Diabetes, and MFI.
DD ~ 12 from previous marriage
2 rounds of Clomid 2004 â€“ BFN
First RE consult 2008 but was not the right time financially. L
Trying all Natural from 2004-2010
IUI #1 with Bravelle 2/10 â€“ BFN
IUI #2 with Bravelle 3/10 â€“ canceled do to low response. Will try timed BD but not real hopeful. BFN
IVF #1 May/June 2010