I've read through tons of the posts in here, and I wish I could have commented on them all but I thought I'd simply write my own post and offer my support to everyone else who I know is gong through the same thing I am.
I've been around this bored before, but after a few wavers in and out, I've come back. I'm 24, my SO and I have been passively TTC since last year but I've always struggled with hormonal issues and emotional rollarcoasters involving pregnancy and TTC.
My cycle has been erratic ever since I can remember. There was a time that I just didn't see AF. Last year I switched to a new doctor and she put me on Progesterone to try and get me to regulate my cycles and make sure I have AF. I started this therapy 7mths ago. My boyfriend has not gone to get tested to see if it may be him, but with all the irregularities with me we are focusing on figuring out how to make me healthier.
But every month has come and gone with problems. At first my body didn't respond to show any kind of ovulation, but as time has gone by I'm starting to think I finally am. But this cycle felt different.
But now I'm on CD 20 and AF is predicted to hit me in about two days and even though I started to feel as if this time was it, just this morning I noticed just a small tinge of blood that I know in my heart means that AF is just around the corner. It's hard because I had so many things that I felt were pointing me in the right direction and voila, I feel so lost and sad.
I'm lucky I do have the support of my SO and a few selective friends, but I still feel alone in this sometimes.
Thank you all for being here.