So, last weekend, my husband's best friend called to tell him that he and his wife are expecting...They had been trying for about a year, so I know that it has not been an easy road for them either. I thought that I did really well dealing with the news. (I think that it helped that I kind of guessed that they were pregnant before they told us, so I had mentally prepared myself for the news.) I called them both to congratulate them, and I surprised myself by not crying at all after hearing the news, as I have cried almost everytime someone else has told me that they are pregnant.
Well, my great handling of the newest pregnancy announcement lasted until today. On his way home from work, my husband called to tell me that his best friend and his wife are coming over tonight to visit. This is a totally unexpected visit, and I was completely thrown off by it. So, as I run around the house trying to clean up the house and prepare for guests, I am crying thinking about how I am going to face our friends. I love them both, and I am truly happy for them, but I just don't know if I am ready to face them in person and I don't know what we are going to talk about. I know that the subject of babies will inevitably come up, and I have been trying so hard this month (on our forced month off) not to think about or stress over this IF stuff. So much for that.
I think that the hardest part for me is the fact that my husband and I are now the only ones in our circle of friends who do not have a newborn or are not pregnant, and we were among the first couples to start TTC. It hurts to watch each new couple making their announcement and to know that it has not happened for us.
Sorry to ramble on, I just needed to get this off my chest...I know that the visit will probably go well, but I just am nervous. How do I hide my hurt when they are so excited??? I feel so selfish, but it truly is hard for me, even though I really am happy for them.