I lost my grandfather, Raymond (I called him Gray), on August 3. I am having such a rough time with it. He and I were extremely close. Everyone said I was his favorite, that we had a special connection. Whatever it was, it is really rough on me right now. I feel sad all the time. I cry about once a day. I like to sleep. I don't worry about it when I sleep. I really wish I could talk to him. I just miss him so much.