Geez, what is wrong with me today? I just feel like everything about me is wrong! I feel like if I were a better person,my bf and i wouldn'thave broken up. If I were smarter, prettier, funnier, I would have someone love me and not leave me! But the vast majority of problems in our realtionship are HIS ISSUES, not mine! But for some reason, today I amjust really being hard on myself. It doesn'thelp that this weekend we are going out to celebrate a friend's birthday and I thought I would treat myself yo something new to wear but I feel like I look awful in everything! I am too fat, I am too pale, I am too tall...ugh! I guess it is just one of those days but it sucks! And now the ex/bf is supposed to come over for dinner. I have a feeling he is going ot cancel but rather than call me and do it like a man, he will leave a message at myhouse. I am going to see my therapist after work so I will feel good after that and then come home to the bombshell again! I just want to feel better about myself, to feel worthy of good things, of happiness!