I have been living with AH for six years. In that six years, I have been treated basically like a prostitute. No kissing during sex, no foreplay and basically a wham, bam, thank you ma'am situation. Although, we have a lot in common, I also believe AH has been cheating on me for a number of years. #1, he went to a parts place where they get their own parts and came home empty handed until, of course, I went with him and then instead of being gone for six hours straight without the part, he got it in an hour and a half. He came home during these times, non dirty nor with a stamp on his hand and long blond hairs all over his shirt which he tried to say was his stating he was new to this and couldn't get the part off. He also told me during this time that he did have somewhere he could go. And he was so dirty sexually that it was strange for him. I mean going from sex one time a week to sex three times a day and all this weird stuff. I have worked with a few people that has worked with him in the past that has told me that all he did was flirt up females on his breaks. I finally caught him later at a different job on the phone with a drug addicted whore from his work who he also stuck up for when she was harassing me . I am still seeing this jerk even though I just bought a house and he couldn't get anything if his life depended on it due to bad credit. I have been abused by him mentally, physically, and sexually for the past six years. Can you imagine being told how old, ugly and what a hag you are? (He's only five years younger than me.) Not to mention all the black eyes and other bruises I have taken from this creep. He helps me out with my bills. But what can I do to build a self esteem and also keep the roof over my head from the bills I have now? I really need to say goodbye to this creep. But am unsure of how to do so without going bankrupt and how do I meet normal people. My ex was the same way except a sexual predator. Thanks.