Thinking about the situation and trying to get back to my life makes me feel sick like nothing will ever be the same. I cant seem to shake this feeling that my son has relived what I did in the past. even though I know its completely different circumstances I cant let go of this sickening feeling in my gut I start to think im coping ok then it feels like it all comes rushing back and I feel panicked again like i cant deal with this Will I ever feel or be able to deal with my day to day life normally again because right now it sure doesn't seem like it... My heart actually feels like it physically hurts I hate this...