hi everyone. My name is Rae Marie. I was molested in the fall of 87/spring of 88 by my stepbrother. It happened because I was alone and scared and vulnerable. My biomom had died in fall of 85. My dad met and remarried my second mom in summer/fall of 87. Mike was very angry. He wanted to get back at my folks. I was in a bad way. I was an only child. My dad and I couldn't communicate. I was 12. When my mom died my dad checked out on me. He sunk himself in work and community clubs until he married my mom. I was blessed with an angel down the road. They were there for me when my dad wasn't/couldn't. I tried to commite suicide in 88 to get my dads attention. I tried to tell him what Mike was doing. I failed on all counts. Mike finally told when he had a mental breakdown. CPS told my parents Mike couldn't come home or else I would be taken. My parents still didnt' believe me. I ended up pg. My parents decided I was having an abortion. Still, the didnt' protect me. Mike pursued me still, though he didn't actually get to touch me again until summer of 90. He, his wife, and his baby daughter were moving back home. I was told to help him move. He attacked me. I fought him off and choked him until he passed out. But I couldn't tell. So they moved in. THat entire summer I lived in terror. I was home alone every day with Mike and his baby. He pursued me. Climbed in bed with me after the house was empty, found reasons for me to drive him places so he could have me alone, would get in the shower with me, come up behind me while I did dishes.He did finally rape me. His wife found out and we got into a very physical fight. I found God then. I found courage to tell my folks---again. And again I wasnt' believed. I was told I probably enjoyed it. That was the last I spoke of it with them. Once or twice a year since then Mike will approach me. I shut him down. My dh knows and has threatened him. Now fast forward to 2 weeks ago. Mikes youngest came forward and accused him of molesting her. His other dd also has sorta spoke up as well. His current wife (#3) called the cops. My parents are protecting Mike. For the first time in years I have spoke about the abuse/rape/terror with my father. He still doesn't quite believe me. He has forbidden me to talk to my mom, my other brother, my sister or Mike. Mike is NOT his biochild btw. Mike hurt me and I am being cut off from my family? Why? Because I told my other brother what Mike has done. My other brother has a child. He has the right to protect his child. My parents decided that they wanted to keep this a secret. I won't stay quiet any longer. I will not stand by and let another child be hurt by Mike. I am angry. I feel betrayed. I am hurt. And Mike is being protected. I need help. Right now I can't even begin to wrap my head around finding a counselor to help me. I need to vent. I hope that is ok here.