Hi -

Well - even though I'm not 50 yet (I'm 32, so don't card me for this board ;), I sort of feel like it with what I'm going through. Due to my divorce & location, my X will have the kids a lot now & I haven't been childless since I was 19. It's such a crazy & scary time for me - I really can't believe this is my life now. Less than 6 mos. ago we were talking about working things out, but now he has a new live in GF/nanny & I think it's pretty much a done deal.

I've got plenty to do right now to keep my mind off things - but of course it's pretty hard to focus or concentrate on anything right now. The kids will start school next wk & then I will begin to be a wkend/one night a wk mom. I have my sad moments, but know that it's just something I'm going to have to get over & adjust to with time. I know that I never want to have anymore kids and am very hesitant to get into another marriage (actually don't ever plan on remarrying), so it's not like I plan on filling my time w/lots of dating etc. Fortunately I enjoy writing & it helps to put my heart into that, but I still can't help but feeling a little lost right now. I mean everyone knows about the empty nest syndrome in your 50's, but when it happens unexpectedly in your 30's, it's definitely a major life blow. Sort of feel like earth knocked off it's axis if you know what I mean.

Anyway - thought maybe someone here could possibly have some insight that would help -

Laurel