I'm wondering, ladies, if you have thought about an end to the TTC journey.
I'm 41, today is my Liam's 3rd birthday. He's amazing and I've always wanted him to have a little brother or sister.
But we've been TTC #2 for nearly 2 1/2 years with scattered moments of dealing with other serious health issues plus a pause for a miscarriage. It's tough, the emotional roller coaster, not having that glass of wine or margarita, all the supplements and potential for guilt trip when you get your period or even after that miscarriage.
When do you just draw the line and say, OK, I've suffered enough, it's just not in the cards?
And then, what do you do? Do you have your tubes tied so when you're finally guilt free, drinking that wine and not taking your DHA, you don't get a BFP that's bound to be abnormal?
I'm not sure, even though Wednesday will be my first visit to the RE, how much longer I can put myself through all this. My career is on hold, we have so many things we want to plan in our family life and vacation, and it's all just on pause waiting for a positive test result.
Obviously, my hope is that I would never have to make this decision, but I feel at some point I must face the reality, if it is, indeed, my reality.
Does anyone out there have a logical, practical advice, or will it just hit me one day?
Sorry to be so negative... Hate to bring down the mood.
41 YO - TTC since April '08