Hi, I'm a lurker but wanted to introduce myself. I'm Julie, 44 and a SAHM, with a dh and 3 children. Ds is 10, dd 7 and dd almost 4. I have perpetual baby fever. I have never felt "done." I stopped bcp almost 1 1/2 years ago (on my 43rd birthday) and nothing has resulted. I have had 3 miscarriages (2 when I was 32 and first trying to conceive and one at about 38). I was on Clomid for 7 cycles when trying to conceive # 2 without results. I then went to a RE and had the round of testing, a normal HSG, and normal SE for dh. He did a diagnostic lap and found endometriosis (mild) and lasered it. I was on the first round of injectables with regular bd'ing and I became pregnant with dd2. Dd3 was a total and complete surprise, born when I was 40. I thought due to my prior infertility I would not be able to conceive naturally. I don't want any intervention at this point. In fact, dh is happy with the children we have and if left up to him would not have anymore. We are somewhat taxed financially and with our time/energy. And I haven't lost my weight (I need to loose about 16 pounds). But I continue to have this longing to be pregnant, give birth, and nurse. My cycles are for the most part regular, but I have had one skipped cycle and 2 short cycles (14-17 day ones) in the past year which I assume were anovulatory cycles. I am probably in perimenopause but hope against hope that I have one last golden egg left. I would be absolutely overjoyed to have one final miracle. Anyway, I just wanted to come out of lurkdom and wish baby dust to us all.