We have a 3 yo. We conceived her the second month after we married. I was 39 and gave birth at 39. Since I had no problems at 39 having a child, I took my reproduction for granted, and chose to wait until she was 3 to have another even though my OBGYN advised against it.
I am very down over my last cycle number of 39 days, because I know the writing is on the wall that I am entering perimenopause. My mom and grandma ended their periods at 59, so I didn't expect to start at 41.
I know that it will be more difficult to conceive now. That isn't what is really bothering me. What is bothering me is entering another stage of life. I have trouble with change and with aging. I have always looked younger than I am. I have to start focusing on the positives. I just have to get used to perimenopause. It just happened to me the last few months. Thanks for listening.