I've been lurking here for a couple of days now.
I am 39, will be 40 in December. Here is my story.
DH and I have a 6 year old son that we conceived with Clomid (cycle 4) in 2003, after trying on our own for a couple of years. My periods were highly irregular prior to conceiving Aaron, finally went in for help, got diagnosed with PCOS, took the Clomid, easy pregnancy (well, got gestational diabetes but otherwise everything was fine).
Got pregnant (again on Clomid) in late fall 2005, and at our 16 week ultrasound/amnio, our baby (another boy) appeared to be missing half his heart (hypo plastic right heart syndrome) which is one of the rarest congenital heart defects. Later detailed scans with a pediatric cardiologist confirmed this, plus other defects with the heart. Amnio results, however, came back fine. Lost the baby at 21 weeks in Feb 2006. I never ordered an autopsy, so I don't know what else was wrong with him (congenital heart defects generally don't cause death in the womb).
I was on Morphine for the labor, and I have a really sort of weird detached memory of the whole thing. I went back to work within two weeks. DH meanwhile, was (and still is) the stay-at-home parent with a 2 year old. The loss devastated him and he went into a deep depression for over a year. There was no question of trying again; he wouldn't hear of it.
Two years ago I got up the courage and told him I still was willing to take the risk and try again, but if he was ever going to change his mind I needed it to happen before I was 40. I was 37 at the time. He replied he was still adamant that he did not want to ever try again. I assumed the door really was shut for good and put it out of my mind.
Lo and behold, two weeks ago I take a vacation day to participate in our son's last day of 1st grade, and DH and I go to get breakfast alone and he springs on me that he has changed his mind and is willing to try again!
So here I am, scrambling to get appointments and prepare! My periods are more regular than they have ever been, but still erratic enough, so I got Clomid this week and have a lab form for the 3 day FSH. Started pre-Natals, got some OPKs and now I am just waiting.
I never really expected to be in this situation. I am really hopeful I won't have any trouble conceiving on Clomid since it was so successful for me before, but I am understanding better from all the reading I am doing that there is no telling what shape my eggs are in.
Wishing everyone baby dust!