I haven't posted in a while and have slipped into some old habits. hormones are making me crazy and I find myself wishing I was done with menopause, that and my boyfriend are driving me crazy and I have found myself crying over nothing. Why is he extra needy when I am cramped and bloated. To make matters worse is he is starving himself again and has lost a few and rubbed it in my face.

My son however did help, He talked me into stopping the use of all those seasoning and gravy mixes pointing out that they are mostly salt. He also is trying to talk me into buying fresh veggies instead of frozen prepackaged veggies, neither of us used canned if we can help it thats just nasty salty veggies that I wouldn't feed anyone.

I think that I am going to try going meatless this month. I get way to many calories from meat and I always seem to eat multiple servings of it. There is also the fact that when it comes to chicken and fish it is almost always breaded and fried and red meat is usually really fatty. Another reason for this decision is that I am really bad about eating veggies, the most I normally get is potatos and we know how much we can gain from eating those. I also intend to eat more whole grains rather than white, I already buy whole wheat bread, rice and pasta, I need to learn to make pancakes and other things with whole wheat.

I'm going to start journaling what I am doing, or at least try to. The problem I have with journaling is it feels like dieting and everytime I have tried to journal when dieting I have ended up binge eating, sometimes to the point of making myself really sick. I need to convince myself that I am not "dieting" but just non-judgementally keeping track of whats going on. I am also going to be journaling emotions and exercise so maybe it won't feel like 'dieting'.

The weather has gotten quite chilly and I woke to rain the other morning so I think that I will either walk or do an easy video on days when the weather is not helpful, I have a feeling we are going to have an early