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"I took a pretty amazing life and marriage...and threw it away," James says in a preview of his interview with ABC News correspondent Vicki Mabrey.
The motorcycle man admitted to stepping out on his Oscar-winning wife with multiple women, and even says he knows his actions have made him "the most hated man in the world." At one point in the interview, James breaks down and asks to take a break from the hot seat.
And just what was he thinking, while cheating on his wife? "When I was doing it, you know, one, I knew it was horrible, it made me feel horrible," James tells Mabrey. "And two, I knew I would get caught eventually, and I think I wanted to get caught....It was me trying to self-sabotage my life." At the mention of his wife, he adds, "It's hard for me to talk about....because I still really love her and care about her," he says.
Sources tell People.com that James, 41, is filled with remorse since the cheating scandal broke and is looking to make some changes in his life. He is currently enrolled in a rehab program and is often spotted spending time with his children. He has allegedly put the house he shared with Bullock up for sale and is reportedly looking to move to Austin, Tex., where Bullock has a home.
Insiders say he may still be hanging on to the hope of reconciling with Bullock, who adopted a baby boy before the cheating scandal broke.
"His mind-set is the same as [just after the split], and Jesse feels that as time goes by, his and Sandra's relationship has still not reached the final chapter," says a pal. "He is not giving up hope that Sandra will come back to her family."
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