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Kourtney Kardashian is opening up about the tough decision she had to make when she found out that she was pregnant with her on-again boyfriend, Scott Disick's, baby.
"I definitely thought about it long and hard, about if I wanted to keep the baby or not, and I wasn't thinking about adoption," she told People.com. "I do think every woman should have the right to do what they want, but I don't think it's talked through enough. I can't even tell you how many people just say, 'Oh, get an abortion.' Like it's not a big deal."
Kourt says that, though she and Scott have had a rocky two years together, he was totally supportive of her having their child.
"He wanted me to talk about it more, but I just kept to myself," the reality star revealed. "He said, 'I really want you to keep it, but I will support you whatever you decide to do.'"
But the decision didn't come easy for Kourtney, to say the least.
"I called my best friend crying, and I was like, 'I don't know what to do.' She said, 'Call your doctor, and at least find out the risks and stuff'" -- which she did, before taking to the internet to read about other women's experiences in this tough situation.
"I looked online, and I was sitting on the bed hysterically crying, reading these stories of people who felt so guilty from having an abortion," she recalls. "I was reading these things of how many people are traumatized by it afterwards."
After, Kourtney realized abortion wasn't the right thing for her.
"I was just sitting there crying, thinking, 'I can't do that,'" she says. "And I felt in my body, this is meant to be. God does things for a reason, and I just felt like it was the right thing that was happening in my life."
For me, all the reasons why I wouldn't keep the baby were so selfish: It wasn't like I was raped, it's not like I'm 16. I'm 30 years old, I make my own money, I support myself, I can afford to have a baby. And I am with someone who I love, and have been with for a long time."
So, a little Kardashian is on its way -- and Kourtney can feel confident that she really exhausted all her options before deciding to keep her baby.
"I really wanted to think it through for myself, and not hear what my sisters were saying, or what Scott was saying. Even though I took it all in, I wanted it to be my decision," she says. "My doctor told me there is nothing you will ever regret about having the baby, but he was like, 'You may regret not having the baby.' And I was like: That is so true. And it just hit me. I got so excited, and when I told Scott he was so excited. But I think if I had said I'm not going to keep it, I really think he would have pushed me into keeping it."
You know, I think it's great that Kourtney is being so open about everything, but sometimes things should be kept private. It makes me wonder -- and this would be very sad -- if she's using the pregnancy to drum up publicity for her new E! reality show.