This is a hard day to start writing on iVillage, because as much as I'd love to be upbeat, I'm worried sick about the families in Pennsylvania who've suffered such a terrible tragedy because of yesterday's shooting at their school.
I know I'm a newswoman, but I'm also a mother and it's impossible to put that aside on a day like today. I'm at a loss to try to understand why someone would do this. I keep thinking about the reports (if they are true) that this man was seeking revenge for something that happened to him when he was 12, and wondering "what was it?"
You saw the boy in Wisconsin who killed his principal and you heard the stories that he had been bullied and nobody did anything, and you start to wonder: maybe we're not reaching these people. It's sort of what psychiatrist Keith Ablow on our show said today: we need to identify kids who are troubled and help them. Maybe this man who walked into the school in Pennsylvania, maybe he was harboring the pain of a 12 year old. It's not a defense for what he did, but I need to understand in order to maybe keep it from happening again.
I keep thinking of my own kids, and suddenly I'm worried about them going to school. I realize that I've been lulled into a sense of complacency.
I'm actually leaving this afternoon for Colorado to talk to the family of Emily Keyes, the 16 year old who was killed at a high school in Bailey last week. I'm feeling a tremendous sense of responsibility to let people know who this child was, who was taken. It's the very least that I can do.