Michelle Williams gave an interview to the British magazine Wonderland last month, just before her ex-fiance Heath Ledger's death, and the issue is just hitting newsstands now. In the piece, Michelle opens up about her split from Heath, how motherhood has changed her, and why she wasn't at former Dawson Creek co-star Katie Holmes' wedding to Tom Cruise.
On her break up with Heath:
"When you're in a relationship with somebody who is also a public personality then it doubles the attention from the media. When you minus that equation it's just less enticing. That's been a real bonus. It's the plus side of the break-up for me. It was so pervading, it got bad there for a while. Every time I walk out of the door I still worry. That's what is so silly about it: even if the paparazzi aren't there, you wonder if they are. I'm not good at that stuff. I need to get better at it. It really used to affect me."
On having daughter, Matilda:
"I feel like I didn't have any relationship with my body before Matilda. Well, I did, but it was just a bad one. After having my daughter I can't judge myself in the same way. My body has done this totally miraculous but utterly ordinary thing. The downside is that my vocabulary has shrunk to the size of a pea. Since having a kid I just don't have the same access to the world. I don't see as many shows, I don't go to many movies and I hardly read any books anymore. I'm lucky to make it through a book a month. So you start to develop in a much more non-verbal way, which can be so frustrating. Also there's been a lot going on in my personal life and part of me is... I don't know. I shouldn't talk about it but it's like I'm re-emerging back into the world or something."
On her future:
"I don't really have a concept of my 30s. Obviously so much has changed for me in the last few months that I don't really have an idea of what my life is going to be. I thought I knew certain things and it turned out that I didn't so I don't really try and anticipate so much anymore. I'm not making any bets on the future. I feel like I'm just starting to catch up to my age. 27 years old sounds about right now. For a long time I didn't really relate to my age because I was working so much when I was 16 and I had a child at 24. I always felt way too young for my situation. Now it's starting to even out."
On Katie Holmes' wedding:
"Everybody wants to know that. No, I didn't go because I was working on The Tourist. To be honest, we're not really in touch."