The contractions were really hard and painful then, but between them I still felt good enough to stick with my decision to go unmedicated. After another hour or so, I was at nine centimeters, and the midwife said if I felt like pushing I should go ahead. After two more contractions, I tried it. I used a squat bar, so I did not have to lie on my back. The pain from the contractions was much easier with pushing, but the pressure hurt so much!
I had thought that pushing would be fast and painless. I was wrong. When I thought the head was out, it was still deep in the birth canal. I was so disappointed, and I thought I would not be able to do it. However, my midwife was very encouraging, telling me to keep pushing and changing positions, and I worked as hard as I could. I screamed very loud!
At 4:15 a.m., my healthy son, Armin Leonard, was born. I got to hold and nurse him right away, and we were all so happy.
Response from a Childbirth Educator
Wanting a natural birth and being confronted with the possibility of the hard labor that is associated with pitocin induction is always difficult. But the story of your baby's birth is uplifting, rather than disappointing.
You were supported by your midwife to slowly and patiently encourage your body to initiate labor. Labor did begin and was helped along by your walking. You drank gallons of water, chewed on a washcloth, took a hot shower -- discovering your own ways of finding comfort. All women should have the freedom to do just that!