Nicole Kidman is finally opening up about the miscarriage she had while married to Tom Cruise -- well, sort of. Nicole, who almost never discusses the loss, told the new issue of Vanity Fair, "From the minute Tom and I were married, I wanted to have babies. And we lost a baby early on, so that was really very traumatic. And that's when we would adopt [daughter] Bella." The couple went on to adopt a son, Connor, as well, but Nicole never gave birth to a child. The actress cryptically told VF of the miscarriage, "There's a complicated background to that, given that I never speak much about many things. One day maybe that story will be told."
Nicole also talks about the downside to winning her Oscar (for The Hours in 2003): "It felt big. It felt lonely and big. You're in a hotel and you're like, okay well, I'm sitting in this big suite with an Oscar, and I still don't have a life. What is wrong with me? It hit home that I needed to get a life. Who do I jump on the bed with, and celebrate with, and order pancakes with?"
On meeting her current hubby, Keith Urban: "I think we were two lonely people. I would probably say that two very lonely people managed to meet at a time when they could open themselves to each other. We were a mixture of frightened and brave."
On Keith entering rehab, just four months after they married: "It was just another twist in my life: Here it goes. Hold on, and off we go! But it was very painful, deeply painful. We were in a very, very, very bad, painful place, and have managed to step through it, and I hope that gives some people some hope who may be in the same place. And that's enough said. Anything else is overindulgent and unnecessary right now. And I think it jinxes it, in a way, and that's why I don't go on about my enormous feelings for this man."
In addition, Nicole admits to still "yearning" to have a baby of her own, and that Keith is "getting there slowly." She adds, "I've learned an enormous amount having a relationship with someone who is in recovery. I'm more than willing to walk it with him. The two of us are very committed to our relationship." Pure class.
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