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He's been sober for ten years, but Russell Brand is still battling the demons of drug addiction. In a shocking moment from his new BBC documentary, Russell Brand: From Addiction to Recovery, the comedian watches an old video of himself shooting heroin -- and confesses that he misses his junkie lifestyle.
"This is when you know it’s a disease. It doesn’t matter that I was sat in that flat in Hackney and now I’m in the Savoy [Hotel]. I’m jealous of me then," Brand, 37, tells the filmmakers.
"It doesn’t make a difference to me. The money, the fame, the power, the sex, the women -- none of it," the Brand X host claims. "I’d rather be a drug addict."
Katy Perry's ex-husband (now dating Isabella Brewster) has always been open about his personal struggles, having gone through rehab for drug, alcohol and sex addiction when he was in his 20s. In the new TV special, he describes how it felt to be under the spell of heroin.
"Heroin is a greedy drug, it'll take everything. First it'll take your money. Then it'll take your friends, your family, your car, your house," Brand explains. "Then it's going to take bits of your body. In the end I used to be scoring with people that had eyes missing, limbs missing."
"You'll take it until it takes your life," he reflects. "It'll take everything until the last thing and you'll gladly give it that rather than give up the drugs."
Fortunately, it didn't come to that for Brand, who realized he needed help in 2002. After twelve weeks of therapy, he was able to move on from his addictions.
"This was the beginning of a life-long journey of doing things differently," he recalls.
Over the weekend, Brand seemed to reaffirm has inner strength with a new tattoo: the words "Lord, make me a channel of thy peace," a line from the Prayer of St. Francis (and a favorite of the Alcoholics Anonymous program).