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Duchess Sarah Ferguson is opening up to Oprah Winfrey about the hurt she felt by not being invited to the wedding of Prince William and Princess Catherine last month.
Fergie's ex-husband Prince Andrew and their children, Princess Beatrice and Princess Eugenie, were guests at the royal ceremony. So Winfrey was eager to find out exactly why Fergie was noticeably absent.
"Were you invited or were you not?" Oprah asked, in an interview set to air Wednesday.
"I was not invited, and I chose to go and be in Thailand in a place called Camelia and ... the jungle embraced me," Fergie, 51, reveals.
The Duchess of York said she took the royal family's rejection hard, calling the situation "so difficult."
"I wanted to be there with my girls and…to be getting them dressed and to go as a family," she says. "And also it was so hard because the last bride up that aisle was me...In fact, when Andrew went with the girls, we were talking all morning and he was saying, it's okay. Just remember we had such a good day. Our wedding was so perfect."
Fergie says that she was particularly hurt by the snub "because we're such a unit together." But Andrew did his best to ease his ex's pain. "He made me feel very part of the day on April the 29th," she says.
In 2010, Ferguson was caught on camera accepting money in exchange for a promise of business access to her ex-husband -- a situation that, somehow, made her feel like being left off the guest list may have been warranted.
"I think what I felt was that I went through the phase of feeling so totally worthless and that (it) was quite right they didn't invite me," she says. "Why would they?"
"Did you feel ostracized by them?" Winfrey asked.
"No, not ostracized," Fergie answers. "I felt that I ostracized myself by my behavior, by the past, by living with all the regrets of my mistakes, that I sort of wore a hair shirt and beat myself up most of the day thinking and regretting why did I make such a mistake? Why have I made so many mistakes? So I did spend a good three hours on that."
Still, Fergie managed to find some peace with the situation, by remembering Princess Diana and how much she would have enjoyed watching William become a husband with Prince Harry by his side.
"I think Diana would be so proud of her son," she says. "And -- both of them, you know? They did a great job. And I really love the feeling that sort of Diana and I both weren't there. But I'm here to say how proud she would have been, and Kate looked utterly beautiful."