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Sinead O'Connor has become one of the most unfiltered celebrities on Twitter -- and that may not always be a good thing. Last week, the 44-year-old "Nothing Compares 2 U" singer shocked her followers by writing openly about wanting to kill herself. She has spent the following days attempting to explain her suicidal thoughts, and why she doesn't regret airing them to the entire world.
O'Connor, who was divorced from her third husband in March, recently gained attention (and Twitter followers!) from her semi-obscene tweets about her sexual desires. But last Wednesday, her Twitter feed took a surprisingly dark turn.
"Had to go psychiatrist for routine renew prescription etc. She says I'm a bad mum and mental for talking so openly about sex in public," wrote the Irish musician. "So now I wish suicide wud kill me," she added -- and she was just getting started.
"I f***ing hate Ireland so much," she continued. "All this s*** we're not supposed to say. Including suicidal feelings, sex, etc. U just get treated like a crazy person. I want to go to heaven SO bad. Have for yrs. But I don't wanna abandon my kids. But if I cud die without them knowing I did it myself I wud."
The mother of four continued by saying that she wrote her wildly sexual tweets to cheer herself up from post-divorce depression, and it worked until a visit with the psychiatrist made her feel horribly guilty. She even begged her Twitter followers to tell her how she could kill herself without her kids finding out she did it deliberately.
Understandably, people were very worried, even sending the police to her home. But on Thursday, O'Connor apologized for "getting so upset" and assured everyone that she was "fine" and "well" after finding a new doctor.
In an editorial for Sunday's Irish Independent, O'Connor wrote that she had no regrets about her "cry for help."
"There is no shame in feeling suicidal. Nor in anyone knowing that that wave passes over you sometimes," says the singer. "No one should be judged badly for however it is they choose to make their cry for help.
"I am not at all sorry that I wrote what I did on Twitter. It was a cry for help and help was received. So it was worth it. I have no shame around the fact that I can be shot into suicidal feelings by certain people's treatment of me. I am no different to any other person, I therefore act as I believe any other person should be free to."
Basically, it sounds like airing her suicidal thoughts was therapeutic for O'Connor. But does that make up for all the fans who were worried sick, thinking they were watching helplessly as she debated ending her life? It's one of those thorny questions that didn't exist before Twitter. At least things have returned to normal for O'Connor's followers: She's back to cheerfully tweeting about her sex life.