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It's been almost three years since the tragic demise of actor Heath Ledger, and now, for the first time, his former love (and mother of their 5-year-old daughter Matilda Ledger) Michelle Williams has opened up about his life and death.
Last Tuesday Williams, 30, sat down with ABC's Nightline to discuss (in addition to her upcoming indie drama Blue Valentine, Ryan Gosling dating rumors, and motherhood) Ledger, who sadly died at the age of 28 from an accidental drug overdose.
Williams recalled what it was like working with Ledger on their Oscar-winning film Brokeback Mountain. Williams, who met Ledger on set, recalled, "That was happy. That was happy at work."
When anchor Cynthia McFadden posed to the actress that she "fell in love on that movie", a teary-eyed Williams responded, "I did. I did."
Williams, who said she understands people's fascination with her loss, went on to talk about how she connected with Joan Didion's The Year of Magical Thinking after Ledger's untimely death.
"In a strange way, I miss that year, because all those possibilities that existed then are gone. It didn't seem unlikely to me that he could walk through a door or could appear from behind a bush. It was a year of very magical thinking, and in some ways I'm sad to be moving further and further away from it," Williams explained.
Further into the discussion, Williams revealed she got "kind of obsessed" with the notion that one's life can change in an instant and found comfort in the quote, "When you've truly lost everything, then at least you can become rich in loss."
Still, Williams said she struggles to come to terms with why his death happened at all. Williams, gets choked up and struggles to explain, "I've found meanings around the circumstance, but the actual event itself still doesn't have a...I can't find a...I can't find it. I can't find a meaning for it."
You can watch the entire heartfelt interview with Williams below:
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